Today I had a personal instructing session at my gym. My gym is part of a Swedish charity organisation, Friskis & Svettis; all instructors are volounteers and trained there. It's a really nice atmosphere there and very good prices, so I like it. One of the best things is that you get a number of free personal instructions, and that's what I had booked for today.

When I've had this instruction session before there always were these confident, 25+ or 40 years old guys giving me a programme. This time, however, things were a bit different. This nervous, really young guy says hello, and tells me that he is doing his first official instruction wherefore there is another guy supervising/checking on him. I assume that the people that normally book these sessions are 40+ ladies that never have stepped into a gym before. But since I've gone too the gym quite a lot before my needs were rather different from the normal client. I felt so sorry for this nervous (really cute n' handsome) guy. It wasn't really what he had expected, and the supervisor had to fill in more than I think he was supposed to do.

Well well, I got a really nice training programme in the end, with exercises for the whole body every time instead of a split and different muscle groups each time as I wanted in the first place. I liked all the exercises; there were several ones that were new to me, and they could be varied so that each of my three workouts differs. Now I feel really inspired actually!

I am in a special phase in my life physically at the moment. After years of overeating, a time of eating disorders and a training schedule that has varied from 7-8 workouts a week, running 35 km a week, to next to nothing except my physical job, I am now trying to find a balance where I eat and exercise of the right reasons. I want to feel and be well, not only look good, which is a massive attitude change for me.


I need to loose a bit of weight, which is a huge challenge for me since I really do not want to fall into the old trap of dieting - overeating again. Right now I am just skipping the sweet and unhealthy things, but to actually loose weight I'll probably have to downsize my food portions as well. A tricky one. I'm feeling hopeful anyway, and excited about finding a lifestyle I enjoy which will make me both feel good and look good. Fitness Me here I come!

I just have to take care not injuring myself again. My physiotherapist, who is helping me to get rid of the calf problem that stopped me from running during two years (it was due to overtraining during the eating disorder time) very wisely said: Now we are going to find the sustainable development for your calves.
It isn't only as a degree I'm going to pursue sustainable development during this year, my whole being needs it!